what does exist?

I don’t think you can start wanting something until you know it exists.
Can we not want anything? What is it that is driving intense need for things? For shit, essentially? Shit that we don’t need -- just want. What is the problem with all of this? Why does it still make you feel so empty? It makes me think that there is something to “the others”. Those that live without wants because of their not knowing they exist. This must have been what it was like in the past, what it was like in the time when all people were seeking out was life fulfillment through finding food and having a family, wondering the earth for something more meaningful didn’t seem to concern them. It didn’t seem to make it to the top of their list of things to do for the day. We are all seeking out something, yearning for something. Love? Money? Success? Fame? Good grades? Or just the next meal for our table, the next glass of clean water for out glass. It has nothing to do with a spiritual world, and everything to do with a physical world. A world where perhaps, people should put their faith in each other, in things you can see and touch and feel and move and laugh with, cry with, hold and change. At some point, physical needs surpass other needs of a person. True, holistically, we need a balance, but at some point we have to give into what it is that our body truly desires. Are we all just wondering around like lost sheep in a pasture? Merely content with the grass that is given us? Satisfied with its constant taste, color and shape? Content with only that? One thing in a world of countless options? Why should we settle for one when we can have many. Why should we settle for many when we can have all. Why should we settle at all? Why not go on with what we have been given to use instead of wasting our time looking around for the next best thing, the better option. Maybe its because we don’t realize that it exists. Maybe we don’t really want options at all. Maybe we have just been told that we want options. Maybe we can be content with nature’s grass that has been given to us. Maybe it is there because it is all we need to live on -- all that we need to survive. Why should we challenge it? Because we can? Or because we are made to. Don’t give up. Give up. I am finished.

Just for kicks.

From Harpers.org

Posted on Thursday, September 9, 2004. The following items were among those found in the last two years during California’s Coastal Cleanup Day, an annual event in which volunteers remove debris from the state’s shorelines. Since the program began in 1985, 8.5 million pounds of garbage have been removed. Originally from Harper's Magazine, June 2004.

4-foot-long stuffed toy salmon
horse’s head
urinal drain
cat’s headstone stating “Your soul is safe now! The spirit is home. Rest in God’s Peace.”
baby bird in a jar
2 phone booths
styrofoam Tiki god
home pregnancy test
Barbie doll with a nail through its hand
pit bull chained to a tree
Scooby Doo underwear
10 dead leopard sharks
plastic eyeball
wooden duck
“Just Married” sign
half a bowling ball
Led Zeppelin album
preserved jalapeños
fuzzy dice
check written to Taco Bell for $8.78
Dracula teeth
crutch
foam foot advertising a fungus cream
half a turtle shell with leg attached
bird burial box stating “My beloved Chico is dead in this box. He died of old age.”
porcupine bones
divorce papers
dead goats in a bag

shut down

don't throw stones.

well, if you ask me, there is nothing that seems to compare to living.