passion. or something like that.

Every year I sit and watch these awards, and every year, god help me, I still want to be there; be in the know and in the crowd with such classy and distinguished people. Watching everyone tonight I realize how Hollywood is still and will always be the American dream, but is not only just the classic American dream of “go west” but the dreams of people around the world trying just to get to America. I think one of the few things I took away from my first stint in L.A. is that you have to make yourself ok with money, with spending money on movies and al that comes with that. Someone has to provide the entertainment for the masses, and I feel, somehow, that many of the films and actors nominated this year transcend the entertainment/art boundary. That is always the challenge, to make films that are just as beautiful as they are entertaining.

[pause.]

I feel evermore as if my life is just getting started. As if, somehow, I will fin a way to bridge, mesh, include all of my passions of film and people, society and culture. For what are the best films made but ones that are able to reach the soul, the very depths of a being. To help escape the world we live in, but also promote change, ideas and understanding. So many of my thoughts as of late, come from recently seeing Babel, where I was reminded of how easy our lives have become, how over the years we want more convenience, less stress, more freedom, and fail to think about those in the world who struggle each day emotionally, physically, mentally and are constantly overwhelmed with life in general. It’s thoughts and ideas like this that constantly inspire – to push for my life to make a difference of some sort on this world. I suppose it’s what anyone would want in their life, except that it takes something new, different and burning inside a person’s body and mind to achieve the change we hope for. It’s always my hope to become who I am supposed to become & to use what I’ve got. So cliché to follow your dreams, I suppose I’m just going to make them up as I go along.

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